It's a beautiful day, why is he still in bed

I can't believe he is missing this clear and bright beautiful day. It could not get any prettier unless a rainbow magically appeared out of the blue sky. And he sleeps. I am tempted to ring his phone to wake him up.

Why did he pick now to quit smoking

20,000 on a home improvement loan, contractors take 6 months to complete two jobs, trying to keep my job, no more money for more home improvements, parents aging, family visiting, dogs sick, work hectic for him, and a vacation with nothing planned so far. With that all in mind, in the middle of madness, my husband decides its too expensive to smoke, and that is the only reason he is quiting. Not for the fact that he could already have lung cancer(it runs in his family), it irritates and enrages me to no end when he smokes around me, causes me sinus problems. No he quits cause he finally realized after smoking since he was a teenager that it costs money. Wow is he bright. So now the fighting begins: He can't quit so he takes it out on me. Starting petty arguments, not letting me read by putting the television on, getting mad at the dogs, when he didn't let them out. When is it going to end? At what point will he realize that all this madness will only lead back to him smoking again. Meanwhile, I'm starting to get frown lines on my face and no longer want to be around him.

Complaining about the heat does nothing.

I woke up in a shear panic this morning, thinking Gosh what did I do? I promised my cousin we would go swimming today. Then in a panic thought, its too hot to even go out of the house today, genius. But I promised. And at least I won't have to spend the day alone like yesterday. Which I was able to read a great book and meditate for a time. So no complaints there. I just want to be cool and I want the garage door to be left closed while they are working on the house. Thats all I want. Keep the windows and doors closed while its sweltering outside. I have a slight obsession with hot weather. Just one of the many things I can't control so I wish and ponder and day dream about winter days.

You are what you eat

Ever hear of the saying, "You are what you eat." I thought I was doing right by my body when I ordered a bagel with bacon and cheese. I took the egg off because Mcdonald's eggs always make me sick. Well the bagel did the same. I've ate the same breakfast for 4 years at least once on the weekends. I was so sick for about 2 hours. I wonder if I had put the same ingredients together at home myself I would have the same result. I practically dropped the bagel a few times because of the grease on it. Never again. It was on the holiday Fourth of July. I want independence from making bad choices in what goes in my body for time and hunger sake. Made me nervous all day that I would be sick again. And then I wake up to find my husband had reset the thermostat to 74 degrees and it was sweltering in my house. Have to keep it at 68 in the hot days so it stays cool all day, if we keep it at 74 and have to change it. It takes longer. Anyone know about air conditioners? Anyway. Even my coffee tastes not so delicious in this sweltering house. I feel like putting ice cubes in it and me for that matter.

I saw my neices and nephews for about 4 hours today. They have grown up so much. But not to the point where they didn't enjoy the big super soaker squirt guns I bought them. They were dripping wet by the time it was all down. These are great kids. I'm so proud they are in our family. James spent the day with the dogs and went to church. So proud to have him in my family also.

I wish I wasn't so freaked out about hot weather. I don't like it unless I am in a pool of water. It has to get better right? 90 is not my favorite number for the visit from the Nashville Family. It's going to be unbearable. What can I do?

Wednesday Over the hump day

So Murphy's trip to the vet is proving successful. He is responding to the meds and he seems more comfortable. They really want to go for a walk. James does too apparently. It's been an intersting day at work to say the least. I accomplished all that I wanted to do today, and met two nice people who would like to work with us.